There was a time in my life when things were very very different than they are now. I was struggling mentally, emotionally, financially and everything in between. I felt beaten down and broken. And worst of all–I felt alone. Completely alone. My husband was gone 14-16 hours a day working on his PHD, I was left with 4 little kids and multiple businesses to try and run. I was failing miserably. I couldn’t keep it together. I would cry myself to sleep at night, and cry during the day while I was trying to work or make the kids lunch, or the laundry. All I saw were dirty dishes and socks on the floor, piles of paper and half eaten sandwiches. I saw all the unread emails, unanswered phone calls and stacks of bills.
There was one day when I was really low–and it was those times that hid in my closet. I was praying and pouring my heart out to God…asking Him why He had left us…and asking us when it would get better. And I had this thought come to my mind…Be Still, and know that I am God.
I took a breath…I wiped my tears…I got out my journal…and started writing down all the things I was grateful for. My warm house, my beautiful children (who forgave me time and time again), dishes we could eat on, socks that my son could wear, bread to eat, a pillow to lay my head on.
And that was it. I didn’t have the strength to write anymore. I put the journal away and went downstairs to where my kids were. I plopped down on the couch and we all circled in and hugged. Then my 5 year old daughter, Cici said…”You know what mom? You are the BEST MOM EVER! I love how you sing me a song before I go to sleep. Can you do that again tonight? PLEASE?”
I almost lost it, my bottom lip quivered… “yes sweetie.” Then my 10 year old daughter, Kyrah got up and said, hey mom, how about I make dinner tonight! It’ll be fun! I can make mac n cheese :)” I told her thank you so much! Trying not to cry.
In that moment I remembered God’s Law of Polarity…everything has an opposite. A bad situation is equally good. Which means that the more that you look for the good, the more good will be on it’s way. And because I spent just a few minutes writing down in my journal what was good in my life…more good came to me. Because that is what I was focused on! When I was focused on the dirty dishes and piles of bills and everything that was wrong…the more of it I found. But when I changed my thinking I was able to change what was drawn to me. My child letting me know that her mom had a decent singing voice, and my other child offering to help cook dinner. The more you look for the good in what may seem like a bad situation, the more you will find the good. So focus on the good and more good will come to you!