By Kristi Steidley
I had a powerful “aha moment” when I was writing in my journal about lesson #11 from Mindset Mastery; a lesson about our awareness of God’s laws. I love Doctrine and Covenants 130:20-21, “There is a law, irrevocably decreed in heaven before the foundations of this world, upon which all blessing are predicated. And when we obtain any blessing from God, it is up by obedience to that law upon which it is predicated.:
When I was going through this lesson and read that scripture again, I realized I need to be a better receiver. We had a great discussion about this during our mindset mastery Zoom call. Afterwards, I picked up True to the Faith and came across Alma 22:16, “believing that ye shall receive…”
That’s when it hit me. I don’t doubt God is giving me blessings, or will give me blessings, I doubt my willingness to receive the blessings. I will do the work. I will be obedient to the laws, but I’m forgetting the final step of receiving. It’s something I have journaled about many times. I have addressed some fears I have about becoming a lover of money or becoming prideful.
I’ve seen it happen to other people. I don’t want that to happen to me. I know I need to exercise gratitude daily. I need to remember it’s because of God I have everything I have, including each breath I take.
I was in the process of re-staining my deck. It was a big project that taught me some great lessons. After I was done, I went shopping to find some furniture and decorations. As I was driving home, I was feeling guilty about all the money I spent. I started thinking I bought too much. I was already thinking of what things I should return. I felt I could go without some of the things I got.
The truth is I loved everything I got. I realized what I was doing. I was having a difficult time receiving. I had taken time that morning to visualize what I wanted to find. I acted by shopping at the different stores I felt directed to. I found what I was looking for, yet I was rejecting the final step. I was not receiving.
I became aware of what I was doing and changed my thoughts to gratitude. I said a prayer of gratitude to Heavenly Father for guiding me to the stores where I would find just what I wanted. I felt appreciation that He cared about what I cared about. He knew how hard I had worked on my deck and how I wanted to make it look and feel. Heavenly Father knew how important it was to me that I could create a warm feeling for my family and I to enjoy when we sit outside together.
I continue to journal and practice being a better receiver. It was so helpful for me to have this “aha moment” to know God is doing His part. He always does. I know I can trust Him. It felt good to accept the gifts and love He was bestowing upon me.