I was breaking myself against the laws.

By Laura Curtis

Worry. Fear. Worry. Fear. Sleepless Nights. Running scenarios over and over in my mind. Concern. What if? What will we do? My thoughts run wild. I find myself crying all the time. I plead in prayer for my son. If I can just be inspired to say the right thing. If I can just bear my testimony one more time. If I just send him this scripture or this talk things will be alright.

I repeated this pattern for several years believe it or not. Any guesses on the outcome of the situation? I was living in constant fear over decisions my son may or may not make, his future, our relationship. You name it, I worried about it. As my fear built my decisions got worse. I was reacting in fear rather than acting in faith.

Well, guess what? Fast forward several years, some of the things I worried about did happen and thankfully some of the things did not. Were there plenty of disasters along the way? Yes unfortunately. However, it led me on a journey I can look back on now and be grateful for. I began a journey of learning to truly trust in my Savior Jesus Christ. Truly trusting Him and all that He is capable of. I began searching for ways to change myself instead of constantly trying to change others. I began to be aware of my thoughts and the things that I repeated to myself, especially when I was emotionally charged.

I was living the Law of Perpetual Transmutation without knowing it and I was using it in all the wrong ways. The Law of Perpetual Transmutation is that circumstances and things are perpetually coming or going according to your thoughts. I was thinking negatively. I was exercising Negative Faith. I was believing and seeing things with such fierce emotion, and I was doing it really, really well. Occasionally I would stop dwelling on my negative thoughts and gratefully those thoughts would dissipate and not come to pass. However, most of the time I would ruminate in them and find myself living in the Bondage Cycle.

Thankfully I was introduced to Mindset Mastery, the principles of Rare Faith and the Laws of Thought. I was breaking myself against Universal Laws without knowing it. I had read Doctrine & Covenants 130:20-21 and knew that “There is a law, irrevocably decreed in heaven before the foundations of this world, upon which all blessings are predicated… And when we obtain any blessing from God, it is by obedience to that law upon which it is predicated.” I needed to use my thoughts constructively. I am a creator and I wanted to create good. I wanted to have Faith. True, Positive, Rare Faith. I am forever grateful to learn from Leslie Householder that belief, true positive belief keeps the “idea cloud” gathering until it is so heavy that the rain must begin to fall, in a good way. I now know that I choose what I want to cultivate, what I want to grow so heavy that it cannot help but come into physical form. I am the master of my mind and thoughts.

James Allen states, “Good thoughts and actions can never produce bad results; bad thoughts and actions can never produce good results…Men imagine that thought can be kept secret, but it cannot. It rapidly crystalizes into habit, and habit solidifies into circumstance.” I choose my circumstances. I choose my thoughts and I now choose to dream and cultivate seeds of faith.

Is it work to keep positive, creative thoughts? Yes, and it is so worth it. It may seem easier to just let your thoughts run in any direction they want and not make the effort to choose differently. However, where those thoughts lead you physically when left unchecked most likely is not where you want to land. Choose your hard.

Leslie teaches, everything about your life is a result of your past dominant thoughts, the ones you put the most emotion into, and the ones that were in your heart (positive and negative). This rang so true to me when I learned it.

“Every man is where he is by the law of his being; the thoughts which he has built into his character have brought him there, and in the arrangement of his life there is no element of chance, but all is the result of law which cannot err. This is just as true of those who feel ‘out of harmony’ with their surroundings as those who are connected to them “. -James Allen
Every day I choose to be a watcher of my thoughts. I know the laws now and I choose to no longer break myself against them but to utilize them to the best of my ability. Life is good and it just keeps on getting better.

Kayli Householder
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