I wanted to prove my doubts wrong

Meet Mary Haws.

Mary completed the Mindset Mastery course, and her growth is evident. In her words:

I want to express my immense gratitude for the opportunity to go through this course. I have learned so much that I know is already improving my future. … Thank you for all the seeds I’ve been given through this course, that I’ve planted and will continue to nourish. This course was divinely brought into my life and was just what I needed.

And now…

We’re thrilled to be introducing Mary as one of our newest HONORS Graduates!

As always, we have a few questions of our graduation applicants. Here are Mary’s responses:

Q. What was your Phase 1 experiment (the inconsequential goal)?

My son needed a calculator for school and I didn’t want to buy one because I knew we had one that my kids had used, but had also played with and misplaced several months ago.

I prayed to find the calculator, feeling gratitude and seeing that I was holding it in my hand, pressing the buttons, handing it to my son and him putting it in his backpack. I paid attention to the nudges. I had a couple of thoughts of where to look, but the calculator wasn’t in those places.

Then I felt to just move on with my day, so I did. At one point I needed to put something away in a closet and took the opportunity to just look in that closet for the calculator. Not there.

I began to walk away toward the closet where the calculator was SUPPOSED to be (in the pocket of a backpack in this closet) and I thought I’d just look through this closet again, even though I’d looked there in the past. I had also tried in the past to look through the backpack, but thought to just double check.

This time I checked between every notebook and folder that was in the backpack… and there was the calculator! Even though the slide-on cover wasn’t on it, I was incredibly happy and grateful to find the calculator.

A few days later I decided to try to find the cover because I wanted the calculator to be protected as much as possible as my son hauled it around in his backpack. So, again I prayed to find the cover for this reason, feeling grateful to have it and keep the calculator in better condition. I pictured sliding it over the calculator and it protecting the calculator in my son’s backpack.

Later that morning my daughter came to me excitedly announcing that she’d found the calculator cover! She’d been playing by some empty boxes and noticed the cover was in one of the boxes! It was awesome!

Q.  Did you face a Terror Barrier during the course?

Yes I did, when I reached out to a friend to have lunch with her. I actually haven’t known this friend very well, but I really admire her and I wanted to get to know her better and learn more about how she thinks I moves through life.

Some time ago, I had the thought to get together with her for lunch or something, but I just put it off and put it off out of the fear that she wouldn’t want to, or that it would be awkward and uncomfortable since we didn’t know each other that well yet, etc.

During this course I determined that I would follow through and finally reach out to her. At first I was really excited, but the day I committed to reach out to her I felt that sick-to-my stomach feel and I was so nervous. I typed up a text to send her and mulled it over and over and over and it probably took me several hours to finally hit send. A huge wave of relief washed over me and I was done to feel calm again and move on with my day.

It turned out that she was super excited about getting together for lunch and we had a wonderful visit!

Q. What was your goal or intention for the Phase 2 experiment?

When I signed up for Mindset Mastery I was committed to completing it within the 6 months I had it for and learning all I could from the journey. My progress went well for several months, but then other things in life came up and my course progress got pushed to the side to the point I was doubting that I’d even be able to complete it by the end of the 6 months.

I did take the time to think, “what if I don’t complete Mindset Mastery within these 6 months?” I answered myself that it would be okay, that I would still complete it even if it meant paying for more time. I also realized how much I wanted to finish within the original 6 months anyway… but the doubts were telling me there was no way because I wouldn’t use time well.

I wanted to prove my doubts wrong and prove to myself that I use time wisely, intentionally, and effectively to go for and accomplish worthy and meaningful goals. So I went for it. And for the last while, along with my goal statement I’ve been telling myself these things multiple times a day and feeling the sincere gratitude — to know that I really do use time well, and that I AM capable of intentionally working towards a goal.

From there, I found myself planning ahead more, intentionally setting aside time to study — and USING that time — and informing my family of what I was working on to have their support.

The doubts still threatened often, but I simply acknowledged them, then rejected them, and turned my mind back to my goal statement and visualizing and feeling the completion and gratitude that was my goal.

And now here I am… I am so excited to be at this point, reaching my goal, completing Mindset Mastery and hopefully graduating with honors. Even more, I’m so excited for the evidence that I can finish goals that seem hopeless or impossible to begin with. I am seeing the impact of speaking truth in spite of appearances. I’m eager to apply the tools I’ve learned for future progress…

I just felt so strongly about completing Mindset Mastery as the first step to help me get going in the right direction for that progress.

Mary summed up her experience in the Mindset Mastery course with these words:

Over the last few years I have been on a journey to improve the direction of my life and I have been learning much of the principles taught in Mindset Mastery, but I’d been learning them in a more haphazard way so putting them to action in my life felt unclear.

The way this course is so carefully constructed is amazing, line-upon-line, and just what I have needed to bring together all I’ve been learning and now be able to APPLY it!  Thank you Leslie! My heart is so full and I am beyond words to express how much this means to me!

I love that Mary found meaning and progress in both her challenges, and in her victories.

Congratulations, Mary! Keep up the great work!!


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